1st week affairs

So first we has come and gone by so fast. and i must say it was BLISSFUL! I attended class on Monday and then I could not find my way back to to campus.

I slept late on Tuesday lol and then coaching to end off my day. I needed that rest, hoildays just took confirmed awesomeness.

The Banging Team was on the agenda for Wednesday and it was amazing to spend the day with my ladies from campus. We all met up at our very own Diva's place, laughed, caught up after hoilday and just has an asewsome time not forgeting Obz Cafe. ALL spoils and smiles!

Thursday, it was just that Thursday! YOU LAZY DAY, I had to prepare and store my energy for Friday!

FRIDAY!
It was BANGING! I spoilt myself a bite with good company(hehe), EXERCISE FOR DAYS lol... Pox it was one hell of a work out! Food is important so I bent the rule and had pizza and chocolate cake.

My weekend was pretty much chilled because it was low weeek( NIGGA ant go paid yet lol)

Life is what you make of it. Find the Balance( studies, work, family, friends, party and a whole lot of fun). I realised that I dont want to look back and say oh I could have done that or this- living my life to the fullest is so worth the smiles and love.

The start to my day

So I was given an assignment, a while back- like 8 weeks ago.... today I am off to the printers! I really hope that they approve everything and I can collect on Monday morning before class. This course really challengers me as I am not someone who likes to ask for help as I prefer to do things without the help of others.

Today I will be tested and I will prevail as I am a women of strength, power and faith!

So I got woken up at 8, checked my messages- one new messages from Serious . Wanted to know what I am doing today. I explained, doing my assignment and if he wants he can meet me in Cape Town. Response to that was "ahh no, wanted you to join me tonight... but its okay if you busy'' lol I was like okay then, he's trying but I told him on Monday that i am busy tonight as I will be visiting a  friend.
I'm not playing hard to get but one needs to understand and respect the fact that ..one has plans.



Right Now i am still at a friends house, waiting for her parents so we can leave and I can start my journey to the City.

Class starts Monday so I will be enjoying my last week as I have enjoyed the 5 weekends prior.

It is what it is

Why do things have to be this way??? so loveless! Part of me wants to feel affection and be appreciated but I do not want the boyfriend/ relationship platform. I always end up giving them 100 % and they end up taking 110% and move on with their lives after I supported and stood by them through all challengers. its not their fault that I am a giver however its unfair to place all fault in myself. 

Today is the day I stop caring about what people think of me and stop caring about those individuals who see my kindness as a weakness, because its not. People are always going to have a problem with who you are. Whether you kind, a walk over, a bitch with a stick or just plain boring old Jane. People are always going to have something to say, negative or positive= Its for me to decide what I value most.

Sometimes even in a relationship the lines of what you value can become blur, as all you wish to do is be happy, make your partner happy and find mutual understanding. I know from past experience that I always end up putting his needs ahead of mind because I only wish for happiness and once he's taken it all and he's prospering and achieving his dreams and goals- He moves on,on to brighter and greater things.
The 80/20 rule states that in a relationship you will only get 80% of what you want and the other 20% is mutual understanding.

Life isn't complicated, we as human's complicate it with our demands, mistakes, damage souls and selfish ways.

Working out with the professional

Today was the day, I worked out with Nicole- Athlete. Goodness, I am sore but it was worth it. it was worth the workout.

Consist: Legs, Abs, buttocks, little arms- lol because you know guys don't want to feel inferior becasue this Beauty has bigger guns than them.

Thanx Athlete- same time tomorrow. i will wake up after the social.

its not about about the body, keeping fit is key.

Good workout.

Yes, thats awesome!

So yesterday I had A taste of the forever love -LOL! mmmmm what can I say??? not what I expected however it was surprising good, hehe. Sweet and gentle didn't think I 'd experience that from the forever love... no complains just embraced it and enjoyed it because its not fair to live life with regrets and what ifs. Series was on the agenda, pop corn, water and smiles... I embraced my odd socks and cute bedtime slippers and playing with my hands. Created that butterfly feeling in my tummy... lol you never to young to experience the finer things in life.Make sure you experience it at least one's in your life.

I had my own box oreo's although I could indulge in my own personal oreo's... and no comparison, in its own league. Tasted like more.

at the end it was awkward, why I dont know, got told: I clearly don't know whats normal.. lol ya right Nigga please.

Benefit of the doubt.

I am true to me. it was fun and I got this shit- not necessarily uncontrol- done controlling just embracing.

Uncontrolled.